12:25 p.m. - April 22, 2004
Is this the sign I've been waiting for to return to teaching high school? Or is it something larger, the edges of which I cannot yet determine? The conversation was brief but I've thought of little else all morning.
If I have benefits, I can continue counseling with my current therapist. This makes my heart leap.
1) How many serious relationships have you been in?
2) Do you ascribe to any religious beliefs?
Yes. I am a Christian, though a poor example of one. I don't write much about my faith here because I'm ashamed of being a hypocrite. That's not true: I am more ashamed that I am ashamed to admit I am a Christian. I don't want to be boxed and labeled or dismissed based on somebody else's conception of what a Christian is or ought to be, whether you feel Christianity is deluded, a horrific, oppressive organized religion, discriminatory, responsible for every evil in the world, or simply irrelevant, but neither do I want to take a stand and preach. So I avoid talking about it. Yet my faith is one of the most important aspects of my life. I don't know how that works. I attend a conservative (theologically and socially) church where I feel very comfortable; it is not hand-waving and speaking in tongues, or Jesus-is-my-buddy-my-mind-is-closed. Being a Christian is hard work and I take it seriously. In private.
3) What's your favourite book?
You may as well as which is the favorite hair on my body. How can I choose just one of so many? Paradise Lost, The Grapes of Wrath, Les Miserables, The Iliad, Shakespeare - and what about poetry? Agh. Cannot pick just one. Sorry.