11:42 a.m. - July 23, 2005
This morning I thought about friendship and space, reaching the conclusion that for whatever reason, I have a finite capability and space for friendship. Limited amicable resources, perhaps. It's as if I can't focus on too many people; that, or too many people overwhelm me and it's uncomfortable. The fewer people to whom I open up and am vulnerable with, the less likely it is I will be hurt. Yet, there is a greater opportunity to be hurt because so much is invested into a few. Eh. What am I so afraid of? Perhaps it isn't fear but something else?
Enough of nothing. I'm going for a walk.