7:43 a.m. - June 03, 2003
Busy day again today, thankfully
I'm a fan of what ifs because I like the torment of sabotaging myself just like ascending the ladder to ride the slide down but never sitting on the metal.
I wonder what if I were to stop, diminish, cease-fire, the push-away qualities. What could happen? What would happen?
It is difficult to trust people; it aches to ponder.
