10:48 p.m. - January 19, 2003
Did not go to church today. It's been weeks. Any wonder that I'm despairing?
In the middle of reading I suddenly realized an error of omission on page 98 and raced through the pages to see that yes, I made an error. Correcting it is taking hours.
I tell myself, once this is done never again, never never never. And then I remember there's five more due. Five more books and this first one has wound me about its finger and is flicking parts of my brain from out my ears?
Cannot will these blues away.