7:24 a.m. - April 21, 2004
What it's really about is they are ready to pay me a good deal of money to do a half-assed job. My salary is already appropriated but this project would frustrate me far too much because the problem areas are off limits. I'll think about it more today. It is not about what I want, but what they want. Repeat 1,000x.
Questions from Midnight Hope.
1) When did you live in New Mexico?
I lived in Albuquerque, New Mexico from July 1991 - December 1991, just long enough to buy roasted chilis from the vendors hawking their spices in large metal drums outside the grocery store. Rose, her husband, and I lived in a small house under a huge tree not far from where I went to school.
2) Did you like it?
I loved every minute I was there, though I did not like Rose's husband much at all. The sense of self-determination was a luxury that makes me nostalgic today. I have to add that living in Albu was eye-opening in terms of class and social structure - the whiter the skin, the higher up the hillsides one lived or reciprocally, further down the valley. I haven't been back or talked to Rose in a very long time, and I wonder if things have changed much. I doubt it.
3) What is your favorite sort of (living) fish?
Manta rays, any size. I am mesmerized by their form and lines. I've always considered them underwater birds and can watch them for hours.