12:24 a.m. - July 20, 2004
Say no to Steve
I understand why I'm unattractive to people. The same reasons why I'm not attracted to Steve.
Something to think about.
To reject him, to deflect his interest, doesn't make me feel good. I feel bad, as though I should be thankful there is somebody interested in me. Yet there is a pervasive scent of power or strength that I, me, can reject somebody.
Standard lines of I'm not looking for a relationship (a lie), I'm not ready for a relationship (true), I can't have a relationship (true).
