7:08 a.m. - November 19, 2004
I feel awful - Shannon's wedding is Saturday and I'm not able to go. Should I call her today, the day before? After? They aren't immediately leaving for their honeymoon and will stay in Las Vegas to celebrate Thanksgiving with her family. Yesterday I became so frustrated I cried a little because I want to go so badly - and you know why? Because there are so few people who want me to be anywhere and I was thrilled to feel that my closeness with Shannon is reciprocal.
I feel like shit for the wedding and while the panic has receded about the illustrations, I have to take care of that. Barbara-the-Editor said a while ago that a one-day delay translates into a week's delay the book is not in the hands of all those people who've paid for it.
No road trip and I am disappointed. No wedding, and I'm hurt. How will she feel? God, this sucks.