10:35 a.m. - May 06, 2005
Make plans for the long weekends, bring the atlas and pick places to see, short roadtrips with loud music and the windows down. I want to return to the Outer Banks, maybe rent a cottage for the eight day period between the end of term and the seminar scheduled for August 25-26 in Fairfax County. Too quickly do I think of Spec and that summer - maybe I shouldn't be so quick to close off that period of my life. Maybe I was lucky to be in love like that, to have a man I couldn't stand not loving uproot himself and follow me across the country for a summer, who indulged my roadtrips, beachwalks, museum fetish. It was romantic, brief yet saturated. For someone like me it was once in a lifetime and I should be, I must be, okay with that.
Maybe I'll go north, to Maine.
Most likely I'll schedule trainings and my vacation will become work. I am nothing if not consistent.