3:01 p.m. - May 20, 2008
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he can't date a guy he can't have sex with, especially if it's been 4 weeks. Two weeks is reasonable; three is being patient; four is too much to ask.
I shut down and nod my head, I understand. Smile when he says we're going to have a great friendship. Sit in the car and will my eyes dry, always in control and unreachable.
it hurts so bad I don't know what to say.
I fail at the most basic level of being human much less being a man. Wasted space. A nothing space.
I'm screaming inside and I don't make a sound. In every way there's nothing left.
