9:25 a.m. - November 03, 2003
A game called Defiance
Objective: To avoid built-in routines stipulating responses to bad thoughts or feelings. To get outside more, to interact with more people, to re-create The Old Jason.
Iíve added a ďWhat I did todayĒ field at the left as a means of monitoring self-accountability. Why stew when I can walk, after all?
Todayís doing: Tonight at the group, I will be the first to speak.
Tomorrowís doing: Tomorrow morning I will leave early enough to browse the outdoor market before my assignment begins. Iíve wanted to do that for over a year. Itís time, eh?
Caution to self: Nobody accomplishes a marathon without warming up first.
This is stupid, Iím telling myself. Laughable. An implausible attempt. Attempt at what? I donít know. Look, I kick myself down when Iím already down. This is called defiance for a reason.