11:19 a.m. - February 17, 2004
Can I say perfect match already?
This disconnect between trying something out with Ryan II while talking to others - Chris in particular - is not lost on me. I am a hypocrite and that leaves a nasty taste in my mouth. I am interested in Chris yet am with Ryan II. How the hell do I get myself in these situations?
It is an interest that will pass; I'm not going to be a slut either mental or physical, will not hurt someone like that. But I am interested. I am becoming much more comfortable with things and can see fruition.
It is a crazy day.