10:52 p.m. - January 31, 2004
During a break he leaned over and asked me why I smile, laugh, then look sad. How to explain pleasure, laughter, feeling good, makes me notice how rarely I am or let go and enjoy something, as if laughing is a momentary break in the control cycle.
All the women in my life girlfriends, platonics have never mentioned my smile. Every man in my life boyfriends, not-so-platonics mention my smile as something that they like.
It is winsome, not sexy. They do not know the difference.