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9:43 p.m. - July 17, 2002 Will I stay? No, I won't. I will return next summer hoping for a reprise, but I don't want to stay permanently. It's like chocolate--too much of a good thing [damn the cliche]--fucks up my head. Can't have too much fun or grow too attached, that's the motto. But I do love my office and its view, so I'll have to take a few snapshots and bring them home with me. ::::::::::::::::: I don't know how to talk about my counselor without resorting to My counselor says and My counselor thinks because I'd like to think I'm more than cellular matter and can be proactive and undergo profound epiphanies, but that's not the case. So fuck it. My counselor says my sleep problems are caused by the subconscious dealing with the things my conscious mind won't, the things I'm supposed to be doing but don't, and it can only get worse before it gets better unless I get off my ass and start talking about it. And online journaling doesn't count. I'm going to end up one of those drunks in a bar who talks your ear off about nothing and makes you feel sorry for him so you give him cab fare, but he drops it in the gutter and doesn't realize it's gone. Tonight's reading is Shakespeare. The Tempest. My favorite.
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