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September 02, 2014 - An update
May 09, 2011 - Love?
March 28, 2011 - In Berlin, beware the collector
March 01, 2011 - -
December 13, 2010 - Dude, I write books
December 06, 2010 - Coming Soon
August 10, 2010 - Wistful
June 27, 2010 - Messes
May 16, 2010 - Breathe deep
April 24, 2010 - -
March 27, 2010 - Event horizon
February 07, 2010 - -
January 31, 2010 - -
January 27, 2010 - Raise
January 25, 2010 - Author unknown
August 16, 2009 - -
August 09, 2009 - Improbable, in Wisconsin
July 25, 2009 - Montana, yes, Montana
July 18, 2009 - -
April 19, 2009 - -
February 21, 2009 - -
February 14, 2009 - -
February 13, 2009 - -
February 07, 2009 - -
February 04, 2009 - -
January 29, 2009 - -
January 25, 2009 - -
January 18, 2009 - -
January 05, 2009 - -
January 04, 2009 - -
November 03, 2008 - -
October 31, 2008 - Change of scenery
October 30, 2008 - -
October 19, 2008 - -
September 09, 2008 - On solitude
August 14, 2008 - Vacation
July 12, 2008 - not a nod to ee cummings, simply a disabled caps lock key
June 22, 2008 - -
June 15, 2008 - -
June 12, 2008 - Now this is unusual
June 10, 2008 - A Monastery of One
June 08, 2008 - -
June 06, 2008 - -
May 30, 2008 - A temporary hurt, yes
May 20, 2008 - -
March 09, 2008 - Folly
February 20, 2008 - Ask of me
January 23, 2008 - Lollipop, lollipop
January 18, 2008 - Meaningful
January 17, 2008 - Customization
December 22, 2007 - south lake table
November 28, 2007 - Know
November 24, 2007 - Tick
October 16, 2007 - Touch
September 04, 2007 - Money woes? or Google woes?
September 03, 2007 - My feet are moving in place
August 24, 2007 - -
August 21, 2007 - -
August 17, 2007 - North Carolina on my mind
August 11, 2007 - I am Murphy's Default Button
August 09, 2007 - Non-Descript is like the childhood blanket pulled out to cover aches
May 25, 2007 - -
January 03, 2007 - Exeunt stage, close the curtains, send the actor home to resume real life
December 29, 2006 - Take a minute and think of things
December 17, 2006 - What's left?
December 11, 2006 - New York New York New York
December 06, 2006 - A lesson on sodomy, of sorts
December 04, 2006 - Jason lost a fiiiiight, Jason lost a fiiiiight
November 30, 2006 - I never learn
November 22, 2006 - Off to Seattle for Thanksgiving
November 16, 2006 - Disappointment
November 08, 2006 - Closet doors
November 07, 2006 - Democrats, Republicans, Mickey Mouse tattoos
November 06, 2006 - Ted Haggard and my cubicle
November 01, 2006 - Beep beep
October 29, 2006 - Hartford to Chicago to San Francisco
October 22, 2006 - Guiltless for now, unlikely to remain so for long
October 21, 2006 - A booty call, a real one
October 21, 2006 - Accident
October 20, 2006 - Resolved
October 19, 2006 - Silly forward, but it killed some time
October 18, 2006 - -
October 16, 2006 - Post-Scriptum
October 12, 2006 - -
September 16, 2006 - -
September 14, 2006 - -
September 07, 2006 - Social interaction, nearly forgotten but most welcome
September 05, 2006 - The Chair II
September 03, 2006 - Mindless chatter
August 13, 2006 - Oh happy day?
August 08, 2006 - Macs for me, Macs for everyone!
July 25, 2006 - -
April 17, 2006 - -
April 12, 2006 - Not here long enough to
April 08, 2006 - Notes from Zion, Part 2
April 06, 2006 - Notes from Zion: Part I
March 26, 2006 - -
March 22, 2006 - Back to work
March 20, 2006 - Love and porn: What a Monday
March 14, 2006 - -
March 12, 2006 - I don't know
March 11, 2006 - Selfish, moody prick
March 04, 2006 - Disgust
February 25, 2006 - Vacation comes just in time
February 17, 2006 - Doing great work but not where it's needed
February 17, 2006 - Orlando, the ersatz capital of the world
February 13, 2006 - Looking at the good
February 11, 2006 - A visit, a tempest, a snowfall. Which will I remember longest?
February 06, 2006 - Curious
February 04, 2006 - A cide alternating between patri- and sui-
January 28, 2006 - What happened to hiding my weaknesses?
January 25, 2006 - Longing for what could be if
January 23, 2006 - On friends
January 22, 2006 - Bile
January 20, 2006 - Just like a slutty flight attendant, hooking up all over the place
January 17, 2006 - Tuesday evening, Houston sucks, and I'm unhappy I can't as well
January 09, 2006 - Notes from Orlando
January 09, 2006 - Notes from Orlando
January 05, 2006 - Gay days and nights ahead
January 01, 2006 - -
December 31, 2005 - New Year's Eve
December 13, 2005 - -
November 28, 2005 - A peck, a jolt, unsettlement
November 17, 2005 - Bad mood
November 15, 2005 - When emotions enter the picture, I dive into work
November 07, 2005 - Birthday
November 05, 2005 - Confusion without giving up leads to... hanging in there and liking it
November 03, 2005 - One should have a gay buddy before attempting to forge a gay relationship
October 27, 2005 - Going away AGAIN
October 24, 2005 - Articulatory mess
October 22, 2005 - -
October 18, 2005 - Up too early
October 17, 2005 - Sweet homecoming
October 14, 2005 - I long for what was, am content with what is, am hopeful for what is to come
October 11, 2005 - Like Odysseus, lash me to the mast so I can hear the sweet sound despite the danger of madness
October 03, 2005 - Come out come out come out wherever you are
October 02, 2005 - Homeward bound
September 26, 2005 - A man who arises early to prepare breakfast while you shower is a rare one indeed
September 25, 2005 - A new beginning & A hither-to unshared sexual interest
September 24, 2005 - -
September 23, 2005 - Short, so I don't forget tonight
September 22, 2005 - Feel feel feel
September 20, 2005 - Gil L., b(?) - 2005, taken far too soon
September 18, 2005 - -
September 18, 2005 - -
September 13, 2005 - On a crisp night with purple clouds and a strong breeze
September 06, 2005 - Chop shops and whores: At least it was only the vehicle that went bye-bye
September 05, 2005 - Dis/content on a quiet, cool night
September 04, 2005 - Church picnics and Jason: Not like oil and water
September 03, 2005 - May you live in interesting times, eh?
August 30, 2005 - Chitty chitty bang bang. I feel like saying this and will again: Chitty chitty bang bang
August 28, 2005 - Sweet homecoming; not bittersweet, not depressing, not disappointing. Just: Good
August 24, 2005 - -
August 20, 2005 - -
August 15, 2005 - Snake, sun, country road
August 14, 2005 - On. Off. On. Off. On. Off. Not on and no off
August 07, 2005 - More than one funeral tonight
August 05, 2005 - Maruchan tempers
August 01, 2005 - August already? I go home in 30 days
July 31, 2005 - Pant, pant, how I want to slurp
July 30, 2005 - Quiet morning, the foot-traffic sparse below
July 26, 2005 - Silly
July 25, 2005 - Recap quickly, because my dinner awaits
July 25, 2005 - Opening day jitters
July 24, 2005 - Some thoughts
July 23, 2005 - Appurtances
July 22, 2005 - Check, check, check
July 18, 2005 - I'll have a beignet with extra powder please
July 18, 2005 - Feeling talkative. Sure this isn't a sign of mania?
July 17, 2005 - Catch up, in brief, because I no longer have much to share
July 11, 2005 - An up and a down. Or (subtitled) A Pound and an Ounce
July 08, 2005 - Peanut M&Ms on a Friday night
July 06, 2005 - Stain
June 06, 2005 - Dull
May 29, 2005 - Psalm something, the one I can't remember
May 25, 2005 - -
May 16, 2005 - -
May 15, 2005 - I don't know what to say or how to say it? Bullshit
May 06, 2005 - -
May 02, 2005 - Landlord, Part II
May 01, 2005 - At last
April 27, 2005 - Big black markers
April 19, 2005 - Creak goes the closet door
April 15, 2005 - March, march, march
April 15, 2005 - Uncertainties beware
April 15, 2005 - Uncertainties beware
April 11, 2005 - Oh
April 07, 2005 - Nothing
April 03, 2005 - Reprise exeunt letdowns
March 31, 2005 - -
March 31, 2005 - -
March 29, 2005 - Iter maximus
March 29, 2005 - Iter maximus
March 25, 2005 - -
March 23, 2005 - Take me too, while you're at it
March 13, 2005 - Crumple crumple crumple
March 09, 2005 - Ah
March 05, 2005 - Abashed
March 04, 2005 - Before entering elevators, see who's inside first
March 02, 2005 - All over the map
February 23, 2005 - Get over it
February 20, 2005 - Fat ass! Fat ass! FAT ASS
February 20, 2005 - I laugh for no reason this morning
February 20, 2005 - I laugh for no reason this morning
February 19, 2005 - Jealousy: A trickle, not a torrent. Yet?
February 17, 2005 - Daffodils
February 15, 2005 - -
February 14, 2005 - Everybody please, just shut up
February 12, 2005 - And for the poor caveman, was there no fire?
February 10, 2005 - Quiet table, quiet restaurant, quiet lunch
February 08, 2005 - Cold on one side, warm on the other: Facet me, then scatter the ashes
February 07, 2005 - It is too quiet in my house. There, that's better: Loud music to keep me company
February 07, 2005 - It is too quiet in my house. There, that's better: Loud music to keep me company
February 04, 2005 - I don't feel sorry, but I do feel a loss
February 03, 2005 - Repeat 1,000x
February 02, 2005 - I'm worried, but writing about it only exacerbates things
January 29, 2005 - Snow coming down just for me
January 28, 2005 - Grr. Just shut up and pay attention
January 27, 2005 - Brrrrr
January 26, 2005 - At least my iPod doesn't annoy me
January 26, 2005 - At least my iPod doesn't annoy me
January 24, 2005 - Thoughts on the avoided question
January 21, 2005 - I still imagine contrary things
January 17, 2005 - On my day off, I embark on a new engagement
January 16, 2005 - Kyrie
January 13, 2005 - Silly day: Worried as I was at times, I liked the adrenaline
January 12, 2005 - Haven't done one of these in a while
January 09, 2005 - -
January 08, 2005 - One writes to fill up the silent spaces for company
January 03, 2005 - 2005 Book Reviews
January 03, 2005 - Case of the Appearing Roadster is now resolved
January 03, 2005 - The Case of the Appearing Roadster
January 02, 2005 - Yesyesnonoyesnonoyes?
December 31, 2004 - O
December 29, 2004 - -
December 28, 2004 - The book is released
December 27, 2004 - A scratchy throat
December 24, 2004 - Christmas Eve 2004, a night of one wonder and one jealous streak
December 24, 2004 - Nothing in particular
December 22, 2004 - Cookies and cream oh my
December 22, 2004 - These are the things that excite me
December 21, 2004 - It is uncomfortable: My nose is cold and I shiver, and resolutely keep the window open
December 21, 2004 - Bells ring
December 20, 2004 - So he writes
November 28, 2004 - Holiday? What holiday?
November 22, 2004 - -
November 22, 2004 - Huzzah?
November 21, 2004 - Bad news travels in threes
November 19, 2004 - Shit
November 19, 2004 - Shit
November 18, 2004 - Master schedule now in order, through April.
November 17, 2004 - Fog
November 16, 2004 - Don't take my teeth
November 13, 2004 - -
November 11, 2004 - I would have gladly shared
November 08, 2004 - Breathe in, breathe out, laugh, breathe in, breathe out, laugh
November 07, 2004 - There is not much more to say and it frightens me
November 06, 2004 - Musings
October 31, 2004 - On this type of morning, I wish I could bake scones or something else equally absorbing and pleasing
October 30, 2004 - Recap and uncap?
October 27, 2004 - You can suck my degree
October 25, 2004 - Someone purchased a day but didn't claim it: Ergo, I have it all to myself
October 24, 2004 - Bondage, S&M, and more? Sure, you can tie my hands up
October 20, 2004 - I do not know what I say
October 17, 2004 - Recap and don't be late
October 15, 2004 - Enlighten me?
October 13, 2004 - Inaction, action, which way will the wind blow?
October 11, 2004 - I'm angry at men tonight: Spec, Nividian, the man who sprawled on a leather couch
October 08, 2004 - -
October 06, 2004 - At work, listening to my iPod
October 03, 2004 - -
September 30, 2004 - -
September 29, 2004 - -
September 27, 2004 - -
September 26, 2004 - -
September 26, 2004 - -
September 21, 2004 - Some worries, some alarmism, the usual lack of resolve
September 19, 2004 - -
September 16, 2004 - The bougainvillea blossoms are dropping
September 15, 2004 - The weather is still warm, but the mornings are cool
September 14, 2004 - I'm such a pussy that even I get sexually harassed
September 14, 2004 - The morning glories are dead but their afterimage lingers
September 13, 2004 - Cogito
September 12, 2004 - Catch-up
September 09, 2004 - Scare-de-cat
September 08, 2004 - check, check, check
September 07, 2004 - Tuesday morning, nothing special
September 05, 2004 - A quiet Sunday morning, not cool enough to be dewey but promises are made
September 04, 2004 - Query
September 03, 2004 - And end to the week, a day I dread
September 03, 2004 - I'll mutter to myself like a crazy homeless man sooner or later
September 02, 2004 - Unexpected testimonials on a train ride
August 31, 2004 - It's my anthem, my opus in the works
August 31, 2004 - I need to iron my shirt
August 29, 2004 - Jeff, you made me smile
August 29, 2004 - Listening to some cello, some Vltava, some Mozart
August 28, 2004 - Anna Karenina
August 27, 2004 - I am still not done for the day. A good thing because like most Fridays, I have no plans
August 27, 2004 - I'm a tool, but a well-paid one
August 24, 2004 - Phillippians 4:1-13
August 21, 2004 - Act III, Scene 1
August 20, 2004 - Last day in DC. Homegoing tomorrow
August 17, 2004 - Late: The Aftermath
August 17, 2004 - LATE
August 15, 2004 - Chagrin over French toast
August 14, 2004 - Nectarines taste best after two days
August 12, 2004 - Habari gani, journal
August 10, 2004 - Morning, again
August 09, 2004 - A breath
July 30, 2004 - -
July 26, 2004 - It is a cry for help, isn't it? In its own way?
July 24, 2004 - Lard asses and tubs of white, emolient lard
July 24, 2004 - Memory lane
July 22, 2004 - Survey? Instant psycho-analysis
July 21, 2004 - Proof copy of Unit One is the locomotive pulling into - or out of? - the station
July 21, 2004 - Slackerdom intensified, though promises a waning effect late into the night
July 21, 2004 - Be it Resolved: II
July 20, 2004 - By general proclamation and consensus
July 20, 2004 - Say no to Steve
July 19, 2004 - Long in the making, short on the substance
July 18, 2004 - Next get-together is at Miles' house in Morgan Hill
July 18, 2004 - Nice wedding
July 17, 2004 - Poem: You
July 17, 2004 - Diverse thoughts, arranged in parenthetical format
July 16, 2004 - Banking whine
July 16, 2004 - Were I a bird, I'd be a pelican
July 14, 2004 - May my prayers be heard
July 12, 2004 - A good scent from a strange mountain of sorts
July 11, 2004 - Good, this is good
July 11, 2004 - Neither a wishlist nor complaintlist; someting inbetween
July 10, 2004 - It's been long enough
July 09, 2004 - There are no quiet moments
July 02, 2004 - A break
June 28, 2004 - -
June 25, 2004 - Destination known, he says, with lusty eyes agleam
June 24, 2004 - -
June 21, 2004 - Good thing I'm not into high school jocks, otherwise I'd be a shameless queen pulling trains in the locker room
June 19, 2004 - Recall the dancing baby on Ally McBeal?
June 18, 2004 - -
June 16, 2004 - -
June 15, 2004 - -
June 14, 2004 - -
June 08, 2004 - Smelling like Jamba Juice
June 07, 2004 - Inarticulate as usual
June 07, 2004 - -
June 06, 2004 - In which writing something is not beneficial to one's generalized apathy towards writing
June 03, 2004 - Wat voor nieuws is er?
May 27, 2004 - Not quite the ending one would hope for
May 24, 2004 - Faure in the background
May 22, 2004 - A satisfying day
May 22, 2004 - Mother May I?
May 21, 2004 - J'y ai arrivé
May 20, 2004 - Don't you need a consultant?
May 18, 2004 - -
May 17, 2004 - -
May 17, 2004 - Oh
May 16, 2004 - Don't see the use
May 12, 2004 - Snap snap snap
May 11, 2004 - Talk, just talk
May 09, 2004 - Singing minute songs to myself
April 28, 2004 - The sound of blood in my ears is hot
April 28, 2004 - Three from Dbfeb
April 27, 2004 - Some thoughts
April 24, 2004 - Fulfilling
April 23, 2004 - Leaving on a jet plane... for the umpteenth time and I've had enough
April 22, 2004 - Good things on the wind
April 21, 2004 - Long day ahead: Class, counseling, lunch with Courtney, class, work
April 20, 2004 - Late night telephone calls, people hiding in the shadows: Foreign nationals beware
April 20, 2004 - 3 Questions, Round I
April 19, 2004 - Ask me baby, ask me!
April 19, 2004 - Sex? No, it was SEX (kind of)
April 18, 2004 - Reminders
April 18, 2004 - Didn't go to church; instead thought about talking too much
April 17, 2004 - -
April 17, 2004 - Sex, more or less
April 16, 2004 - -
April 15, 2004 - -
April 13, 2004 - -
April 12, 2004 - -
April 09, 2004 - -
April 09, 2004 - -
April 08, 2004 - -
April 08, 2004 - Nostalgia.
April 07, 2004 - Self-pity, per custom
April 05, 2004 - -
April 05, 2004 - Of 12
April 04, 2004 - I have a chip on my shoulder. Wanna guess?
April 02, 2004 - -
April 01, 2004 - I tasted my own cum to the beat of Blondie
April 01, 2004 - -
April 01, 2004 - A chacun son gout
March 31, 2004 - 12-45
March 31, 2004 - 130
March 30, 2004 - -
March 30, 2004 - 134
March 29, 2004 - If it were a challenge I'd feel differently
March 28, 2004 - Baking cookies. And it's not even midnight.
March 28, 2004 - -
March 26, 2004 - The non-Friday Five Friday Five
March 24, 2004 - -
March 23, 2004 - -
March 21, 2004 - -
March 18, 2004 - This is the way it's done
March 18, 2004 - Don't look for an acrostic
March 16, 2004 - Pleasure
March 14, 2004 - Spank me?
March 11, 2004 - Leitmotifs run amuck
March 10, 2004 - I've either lost all sense or I'm doing something right
March 08, 2004 - Boom
March 06, 2004 - I'm honored, I truly am, but not interested
March 05, 2004 - Thoughts
March 05, 2004 - Friday Five
March 04, 2004 - Jason's a whore, repeat 1000x
February 29, 2004 - Closing in on near 1,000, the end goal
February 28, 2004 - Three
February 27, 2004 - 3
February 25, 2004 - Two
February 24, 2004 - One
February 23, 2004 - What?
February 21, 2004 - I -
February 17, 2004 - Stay away, Jason
February 16, 2004 - Melancholia gets a bum rap
February 15, 2004 - What the hell am I talking about?
February 14, 2004 - Valentine's Day: Tropism, emotions, movies - caricatures never end
February 13, 2004 - Friday Five
February 12, 2004 - Follow up on this, investigate patterns
February 11, 2004 - This is going to kill me
February 10, 2004 - Giving it a shot
February 10, 2004 - No, that's not my face you saw on TV. Practice for ease of delivery if needed.
February 09, 2004 - Read between the lines. I'm losing the urge / want / need / joy of writing.
February 08, 2004 - The enterprise of life defeats me
February 07, 2004 - There is nothing to say
February 07, 2004 - Saturday morning, a quiet time to think about the rising confluence of ambition and direction
February 06, 2004 - Friday Five
February 05, 2004 - If these are the last-minute details, I wonder what the real last-minute details will be
February 05, 2004 - I want a couple wives and husbands, and I've always had an eye on that goat over yonder
February 04, 2004 - Discretion, articulation: I demonstrate neither
February 02, 2004 - Please don't say Dockers and a shirt. I'm tired of my uniform.
February 02, 2004 - On poetry, hair color, and the end of the Luddite
February 01, 2004 - Slip 'n slide
January 31, 2004 - Light dinner, an outing, fresh sheets on the bed: An official date
January 31, 2004 - Is it risky to draw parallels between then and now, or obtuse when one doesn't?
January 30, 2004 - Friday Five
January 29, 2004 - The music of my season is acapella
January 29, 2004 - All of a sudden, this journal doesn't seem so private and it bothers me
January 28, 2004 - Morning sex with Ryan II, thoughts of Spec creep in
January 27, 2004 - One down (yesterday), one up (today): Call it what you will, these are the times I'm reminded to have faith
January 26, 2004 - Misanthropic sob fest. Spare yourself this one
January 25, 2004 - Quick: A primer on romance, inducing desire, and making one so horny he howls
January 24, 2004 - I feel like Mr. Potato Head
January 24, 2004 - Trafe! Moses would be pissed
January 23, 2004 - Begin self-talk now: I can do this, I can do this, I can do this and not feel guilty
January 23, 2004 - Considering doing my own meme. Were I, would you suggest Monday or Tuesday as best?
January 22, 2004 - Several coulds but it is certain: Those things I thought impossible are coming my way faster than I realize and my one day will be tomorrow before long
January 21, 2004 - It is a credo, a tattoo: No can do
January 20, 2004 - Ryan II cooks, cleans, and - (blush). That's for later.
January 20, 2004 - On limos and sisters and The Great Idiot, her boyfriend
January 19, 2004 - Don't they understand free time is ominous to me? Work me! Work me!
January 18, 2004 - Run quick or close your eyes: I don't believe in love, won't
January 17, 2004 - On Legos, sex, and hope
January 16, 2004 - Friday Five
January 16, 2004 - Breathe the air of loserdom today
January 15, 2004 - Keystrokes don't mimic human conversation close enough, but if I close my eyes and try real hard, I can almost hear it
January 15, 2004 - Now that shortly I'll click done! I'll have nothing else to do
January 14, 2004 - Smurfs?
January 13, 2004 - A day like a hot air balloon: Up quickly, amazing view, a rapid descent when the fuel runs out
January 13, 2004 - On Dean and his Cabinet vision: You really mean it?
January 13, 2004 - Addendum?
January 12, 2004 - I need to come up with a name less juvenile than Mean Therapist
January 12, 2004 - Knock knock?
January 12, 2004 - When will there be a moratorium on suing others for your life?
January 11, 2004 - Walking through Memphis - err, my fog-filled suburb
January 10, 2004 - Yes, yes, I know
January 10, 2004 - What's this? Again?
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January 08, 2004 - Sweet & Sour
January 08, 2004 - On the mentee and becoming an official mentor
January 07, 2004 - I've said it before; I hope I can stick with the plan
January 07, 2004 - I avoid men, and the lack of stimuli sucks; I engage them, and fuck it all up; an apt image is me working an assembly line removing all the bad apples after the good ones have already been picked so there's nothing getting by
January 06, 2004 - Keoni, if you ever read this, this is Jason with the big feet
January 05, 2004 - One cannot traverse two directions simultaneously and running to and fro to cover both routes proves disastrous
January 04, 2004 - Thought I could avoid the crowds but like most of my presumptions, I was in error
January 03, 2004 - On Ferris wheels
- 2004 Book Reviews
January 03, 2004 - One of those nights when - why say it? I wouldn't talk about it even if there was somebody to talk to
January 02, 2004 - Friday Five: A doozy
January 01, 2004 - Streetlamps
January 01, 2004 - Starting 2004 off on a good foot, because the other one is strained
December 31, 2003 - The best of, the worst of: Bits of miscellanea, for no one's amusement than my own (I am loathe to aim to lofty heights)
December 30, 2003 - Non-sequitur: I feel queasy
December 29, 2003 - It's raining something here in my house
December 28, 2003 - Benediction
December 27, 2003 - Spring 2003: Misplaced entries, or, The Entries I Hid And Forgot For Good Reason
December 26, 2003 - I'd like to think I've gained more brushstrokes but I see it clearly: I'm dealing with pointilism, not swaths, and I want to despair
December 25, 2003 - Christmas recap?
December 24, 2003 - Christmas Eve confession?
December 24, 2003 - Ah, what would one do without family? Live happily, prosper, enjoy the quietness of a home?
December 23, 2003 - Holiday stress six-fold: On my doorstep already
December 22, 2003 - Monday night
December 20, 2003 - Cyclical, elliptical, a mobius strip: Either way, I end up where I begin
December 19, 2003 - Yeah, it doesn't feel good
December 19, 2003 - Friday Five
December 18, 2003 - Catching up on the ex
December 17, 2003 - Come with, but get away quickly
December 16, 2003 - If I miss the deadline, it's because I jumped into the water off the marina
December 16, 2003 - Clear-headed (diversion!), a good morning (sheer will), thinking about school (my refuge when I'm lost)
December 15, 2003 - Stream of consciousness is poor journaling
December 15, 2003 - Is it something in the air or water that makes people suck? What happened to gentility, niceness, all-around joie de vie?
December 15, 2003 - I don't normally do this, but there are occasions in which turning to neighbors can be handy
December 14, 2003 - Rambling here-and-there
December 13, 2003 - Yes, you are a good friend and I am glad to have you in my life
December 12, 2003 - Between shopping with a girlfriend and cuddling, he chooses to tote
December 12, 2003 - Lights! Action!
December 11, 2003 - I did it
December 11, 2003 - I said I could and I will
December 11, 2003 - Positive self images?
December 10, 2003 - Hold me and whisper in my ear, I believe in you
December 09, 2003 - Monday night reflections on a Tuesday morning
December 08, 2003 - Jitters, a non-lover's-though-something-similar quarrel
December 08, 2003 - Feeling good on a Monday morning
December 07, 2003 - Far from multi-tasking, I'm indulging my other personalities so we each get what we like best: Work, a movie, and reflection cum analysis
December 07, 2003 - A[deleted]a, listen up and weigh options
December 06, 2003 - I may have a nice smile, a decent personality, make sufficient conversation, be an eager, novice kisser, but these things are a distant second best when on a date with someone who prides himself on being a good top
December 05, 2003 - Quickly
December 04, 2003 - It's not you, he says, it's me
December 04, 2003 - How sick is too sick not to go to work?
December 03, 2003 - I strive for lucid prose elsewhere, simply not in my journal
December 03, 2003 - Yuck. And I put my leg into the goop as well
December 02, 2003 - T-minus 9 days, so calm down
December 01, 2003 - Meander, confuse, relieved anguish
December 01, 2003 - Nostalgia: Unexpectedly welcome
November 30, 2003 - Did I spend 4 minutes writing this? That wasn't allotted for today.
November 29, 2003 - The phone is on ignore and I'm wishing for something to happen so I don't have to write today.
November 28, 2003 - Sometimes it's easier to be habitual than adventurous
November 27, 2003 - Do they know it's Christmas?
November 26, 2003 - A good night, a good morning of sorts
November 24, 2003 - I would love to teabag United Airlines' customer service. Uh - I did just say that.
November 24, 2003 - Oh shit oh shit
November 23, 2003 - It's a revolving door, I know, but this one stops me mid-cycle
November 22, 2003 - I like answers
November 21, 2003 - Rambles like every other
November 20, 2003 - Feeling bad
November 20, 2003 - Where are my pennies from heaven?
November 19, 2003 - Enuresis? It's towards the end
November 18, 2003 - Not quite the baseline yet
November 17, 2003 - A mariachi band?
November 17, 2003 - Idiocy ramblings from within a government building. Why can't government buildings regulate heat - is it in the USC or the state equivalent that all taxpayer-funded facilities either roast or freeze its occupants?
November 16, 2003 - He said Oh?
November 13, 2003 - Grouchy
November 12, 2003 - -
November 12, 2003 - Mornings at 5
November 10, 2003 - Sap
November 10, 2003 - Home, blah, this entry is not worth your time yet I write because I'm relieved
November 08, 2003 - I wish Spec were here, I do.
November 07, 2003 - It's my birthday and I'll cry if I want - and I do, but I won't
November 06, 2003 - Hitting the road
November 06, 2003 - Thursday
November 05, 2003 - Rambling
November 04, 2003 - Hopeless!
November 04, 2003 - The karma bus not only smacked me in the ass, ran me over and then idled, it pumps sulfurous exhaust in my face
November 04, 2003 - Now that ipecac is discouraged, what else is there?
November 03, 2003 - The ground shakes under my feet
November 02, 2003 - Back up and look for happier reading elsewhere; it is neither my forte nor interest to make you laugh or have you return
November 01, 2003 - Quarry, plumb, trawl: With chisel or net?
October 31, 2003 - Halloween: Go away
October 30, 2003 - Some thoughts to kill time, to make me blush, to make me wonder
October 29, 2003 - Theme, rheme, counter
October 28, 2003 - On the prowl?
October 27, 2003 - Ex professo
October 26, 2003 - Mendelevesque?
October 25, 2003 - Curiosity killed the cat because it didn't move fast enough
October 24, 2003 - Murder in the parking lot; or, Calling Unsolved Mysteries
October 23, 2003 - The way of my world, at least
October 23, 2003 - On men, simply
October 22, 2003 - Flowers suck
October 21, 2003 - A quick thought, half-formed like most
October 20, 2003 - A quiet Monday, like old sand
October 19, 2003 - At least a cul-de-sac has a way out
October 18, 2003 - Please
October 16, 2003 - Uncertainty reminds me of Piers Anthony
October 16, 2003 - Electrical journeymen oh my
October 15, 2003 - A no is a no unless it's my no, apparently
October 13, 2003 - Huh
October 12, 2003 - Undone, there is nothing left to say but much that cannot
October 11, 2003 - We both had garlic mashed potatoes, an ideal mutal kiss-repellent
October 10, 2003 - Ah?
October 09, 2003 - Blip
October 08, 2003 - Political themes never exhaust themselves
October 08, 2003 - It's all a joke, right? Right?
October 07, 2003 - Skip this one
October 07, 2003 - Disenfranchised! Marginalized! I smell a Democratic rat.
October 07, 2003 - Flip a coin, choose blindly, they're all bad
October 06, 2003 - Precipitous evenings are conducive to next-day organization
October 06, 2003 - Chickenshit
October 05, 2003 - Don't ask of others, ever
October 05, 2003 - On a night I dread to be alone
October 04, 2003 - My social life is like bovine growth hormone: Too fast all at once with unforeseeable implications. A cow on speed, anyone?
October 02, 2003 - Quickly, cast your pearls before swine
October 01, 2003 - Blah
October 01, 2003 - Vindication somewhat, but gimme my money NOW
September 30, 2003 - I don't know what I should say to be clear
September 29, 2003 - A brief homecoming, guilt tempered by nostalgia, a reminder of what was once and won't be twice
September 29, 2003 - On . . . nothing much
September 28, 2003 - A little bit of everything, not discordant but pleasing
September 27, 2003 - Quickly, a note
September 26, 2003 - Off to Seattle whooo hooo
September 25, 2003 - Less blah and more This is killing me!
September 25, 2003 - I'm at work bored, restless, thinking
September 25, 2003 - Huh?
September 24, 2003 - It's been a long time, but I recall the sting! of the snap
September 24, 2003 - Mission statement, reprised, regurgitated, a downer on a bothersome Wednesday, an alert perhaps?
September 23, 2003 - Go (away) Republicans, Go (away) Dems, Go (the fuck for sure) Davis, Go (home) Everybody Else
September 23, 2003 - How's that song go? \"It's raining men\"? Don't simply pull out the umbrella; it's time to relocate to the desert
September 22, 2003 - I don't do blasts from the past
September 22, 2003 - Men suck
September 21, 2003 - On Ryan and semi-strangers asking personal questions out of the blue
September 21, 2003 - I don't know what the hell I'm talking about
September 21, 2003 - The quality of my entries deteriorating, similar to the formula for determining success ratios one to two standard deviations from the mean, with 55 percent accuracy
September 20, 2003 - Talk to me, I think
September 19, 2003 - Maybe R. said fuck it, too
September 18, 2003 - Feedback, please
September 18, 2003 - Lousy morning
September 17, 2003 - Neither limn nor vagary, some thoughts
September 16, 2003 - On a train platform or in a train, my eyes are not beautiful
September 16, 2003 - The dinner with Ryan
September 15, 2003 - Pray all goes well
September 15, 2003 - An apparition of defensiveness, which only betrays uncertainty and castigation
September 14, 2003 - Same story, same cycle, different characters
September 14, 2003 - Remorse
September 12, 2003 - This is not to say I wouldn't suck his dick and lick the sweat from his body if I could
September 11, 2003 - I'm feeling bad already by this
September 10, 2003 - Anodyne!
September 10, 2003 - Long-winded much like explanations on quantum physics that boil down to an emphatic 'We know we don't know what we know so perhaps superstring theory works after all.'
September 08, 2003 - Feeling open and in a good place
September 08, 2003 - Thought of the day
September 07, 2003 - Secret Place #2
September 06, 2003 - The snake or the apple, your interpretation
September 05, 2003 - I am unfulfilled and wasting
September 03, 2003 - Another chapter, another black heart
September 02, 2003 - A terminal terminus or a terminus terminal?
September 01, 2003 - This is not Star Trek
September 01, 2003 - Yeah, join the fucking hoarse chorus
August 31, 2003 - Were I to spell overslept as overslepped would anybody raise an eyebrow?
August 30, 2003 - There was an old man who lived in a shoe
August 29, 2003 - The crickets outside don't make enough noise to fulfill my want
August 28, 2003 - Despite it all, a great day
August 28, 2003 - Unknown luxuries
August 27, 2003 - Resolved: Jason doesn't hate the IRS, merely the System.
August 27, 2003 - The tax collector seizeth and I'm caught off guard
August 26, 2003 - Just chilling? Chillin? Chillin'?
August 26, 2003 - Eli's latest email. I'm going to call him, I think
August 26, 2003 - On Costco and Homeland Security
August 25, 2003 - Retreat! Retreat!
August 24, 2003 - Yeah. I know. It's always this way.
August 23, 2003 - A cable car ride for me today
August 22, 2003 - Some thoughts on Eli, talking myself into something
August 21, 2003 - Something's not right
August 21, 2003 - Eli, can't you read my mind?
August 20, 2003 - Eli
August 19, 2003 - On newstands: Jason's Smut
August 19, 2003 - I don't want the talk!
August 18, 2003 - A leash, a noose: What's the difference, really?
August 18, 2003 - Manic Mondays are my favorite
August 17, 2003 - Nothing like flying into the Bay Area at dusk
August 17, 2003 - Last morning in Maryland
- 100 More Things About Me
August 16, 2003 - Can this be so simple, understated, and clear?
August 15, 2003 - Turn off the lights and turn in the key; it's time to say Salve
August 15, 2003 - A recap? Feeling bad? Indecisive as always? Yes, that.
August 14, 2003 - The nature of the beast
August 13, 2003 - This jailbird is fleeing the coop, but not until he gets laid again
August 13, 2003 - I don't know what this one's about
August 12, 2003 - A quickie - no, not that kind. That was earlier; this is now.
August 11, 2003 - Tonight, I'm horny and Spec's ass is raw. No compromise later tonight.
August 11, 2003 - Catching up with Barbara-the-Editor or, more aptly, Barbara-the-Editor catches up with me
August 10, 2003 - Pitch perfect, no, but harmony some
August 10, 2003 - It's 3:30, do you know where he is? Where I am? Where you are?
August 09, 2003 - Corner
August 09, 2003 - Demonstratem est, luxus capare
August 08, 2003 - Rang the bell at 2:45, smiled, hugged.... not the final act for sure
August 07, 2003 - -
August 07, 2003 - Some ruminations
August 06, 2003 - I do nothing right!
August 06, 2003 - A confession? +1 point
August 05, 2003 - Point, counterpoint, match, set?
August 04, 2003 - In a few years I'll look back and laugh
August 04, 2003 - Another lunch hour, another quiz
August 03, 2003 - I'd write more but there's nothing worth saying aloud
August 03, 2003 - A half-thought, and it thunders outside
August 02, 2003 - How's the song go, \"I'm sitting on a dock in the bay\" or something like that?
August 01, 2003 - Contingencies and iota
July 31, 2003 - Half the time I don't know what runs through my head
July 30, 2003 - Nothing
July 29, 2003 - Shoot me twice and make sure I've expired, eh?
July 27, 2003 - I went where and did what?
July 27, 2003 - On phone sex and church and erotica (gasp!)
July 26, 2003 - Crow's nests and keeps and not much else
July 26, 2000 - I don't know what this is about
July 25, 2000 - What?
July 25, 2000 - Thoughts in the blender: Whip
July 24, 2003 - Thoughts through the blender: Frappe?
July 24, 2003 - I don't understand
July 23, 2003 - I fell off the wagon and couldn't hold on to the wheels
July 21, 2003 - It's official: I'm a real pornographer
July 20, 2003 - Bad Jason, bad Jason!
July 19, 2003 - The Carpenters song, something about being on top of the world, is an apt apostrophe
July 18, 2003 - Truncated
July 18, 2003 - A ladder I can call my own, or Give me some tape and scissors
July 18, 2003 - On the blind and online chat
July 17, 2003 - Quickly now
July 16, 2003 - Morning update
July 15, 2003 - A memo: To Jason, from Jason
July 15, 2003 - Oops
July 14, 2003 - Once there was a man named Jason
July 14, 2003 - Malignancy
July 14, 2003 - Is the end more like Eliot's vision or Einstein's?
July 12, 2003 - On the couple across the lawn from me
July 11, 2003 - I'd slap myself twice if I could get the same momentum each time
July 11, 2003 - Checking in?
July 10, 2003 - Nothing at all
July 09, 2003 - And then it was gone
July 08, 2003 - Two mysteries: Donors and fillings
July 08, 2003 - Just leave me alone is what I think, but I smile and walk on water still, only because you're watching
July 08, 2003 - Huh?
July 07, 2003 - Rambling on a Monday morning, one much better spent in bed
July 06, 2003 - This is my song, half untold, half told over and over
July 05, 2003 - Gimme the quim tonight
July 04, 2003 - Blech
July 03, 2003 - It's morning
July 02, 2003 - Didn't Ann Landers die sometime ago?
July 02, 2003 - Dreams rehash reality
July 01, 2003 - I'm worried about my student evaluations, especially now
July 01, 2003 - Addled, I am
June 30, 2003 - Random
June 30, 2003 - Students stay away
June 29, 2003 - I'm giving myself a headache
June 28, 2003 - Resignation?
June 27, 2003 - It's thunnering and litenin
June 26, 2003 - A thought or two that go nowhere, similar to my professional and social development
June 26, 2003 - Quickly, now act
June 25, 2003 - General uneasiness on one hand, general contentment on the other
June 24, 2003 - A photo, a warning, a comment on capitalist hegemony
June 23, 2003 - S i p i g i t a f n o c a a n
June 23, 2003 - First day jitters all is normal all is calm all is a Christmas song?
June 22, 2003 - Phone sex does cure water hammer
June 21, 2003 - Catching up on lil' bits o'nothing
June 21, 2003 - Catching up on lil' bits o'nothing
June 19, 2003 - Serendipity and death
June 17, 2003 - Gush like a geyser, egress, feel better immediately afterward
June 15, 2003 - Can one be true to oneself? All the time?
June 14, 2003 - A quick thought
June 13, 2003 - Does this mean I've come out to myself?
June 12, 2003 - It's morning: some (non)thoughts
June 11, 2003 - A line of gold stars, faded and dimmed
June 11, 2003 - Confession? Stating the obvious?
June 10, 2003 - I think I'm high on nothing, which is daunting enough
June 10, 2003 - If you send me flowers, that means you know my address and that means next time you'll ask to come inside. I know the tricks of the trade. Unfortunately I invited him in myself, much like extending an invite to a vampire?
June 10, 2003 - Brief aftermath, unfinished
June 09, 2003 - Gay sex 10. Talk about something new
June 09, 2003 - It's a lagniappe this morning! One for you, one for me, one for him and him and him
June 08, 2003 - Intentions, intentions on the wall, who's the fairest gender of them all?
June 07, 2003 - It's not a resolution, just some thoughts
June 06, 2003 - It's a recap that recaps... not much
June 05, 2003 - Demonstratum
June 05, 2003 - Anonymous envelopes bode ill
June 03, 2003 - Busy day again today, thankfully
May 31, 2003 - Some thoughts that belong in the private folder
May 31, 2003 - It's too late to be couth so uncouth in disguise I will be
May 30, 2003 - Can it be true or is it like Velveeta, the untrue cheese?
May 30, 2003 - Telephone queue, take a number and risk not getting served
May 30, 2003 - Anger too much last night and this morning
May 29, 2003 - A survey!
May 29, 2003 - Just some early morning thoughts
May 28, 2003 - Hairybackism
May 28, 2003 - Sometimes even the big toe in the shallow end is too much
May 27, 2003 - Dan Savage evidently doesn't know my phone number
May 26, 2003 - Touch my wallet and you better have a good explanation, something like you're trying to get a better look at my ass instead of wanting money
May 25, 2003 - Seeking a gay avatar
May 24, 2003 - Warning: Gay Sex 8
May 24, 2003 - Making summer plans and I may revisit a few more entries from Summer 2002 to chart progress, symptomology, delve into catechesis
May 23, 2003 - Seeking a How To Be Gay manual, one without a videotape or DVD
May 23, 2003 - You can call me Landlord, Sir, Ruler of the Doman, Daddy, The Big Man, whichever suits both of us
May 22, 2003 - On pragmatics
May 22, 2003 - Resolution
May 21, 2003 - Just me and my fucked up head
May 20, 2003 - No reflection on what I did
May 20, 2003 - It's here now and that's what counts
May 19, 2003 - Chez moi but not for long; mental and physical transience
May 15, 2003 - On steaks, cowboys, and manly Texan men
May 14, 2003 - Mental note: Write more later
May 13, 2003 - I have hours to kill. Entertain me?
May 13, 2003 - I think about him and am ashamed to admit it
May 13, 2003 - More from the secret mixed-up files of personality and individualism
May 12, 2003 - I'm not going near clippers for a while because there's nothing left to cut
May 11, 2003 - These aren't my stories, though I wish they were
May 11, 2003 - The next time I say Go Away be stubborn
May 10, 2003 - Saturday afternoon
May 08, 2003 - Morning thoughts after a night spent being me in the negative sense
May 07, 2003 - On paranoia, planes, and senseless junk
May 07, 2003 - Some pre-shower thoughts
May 06, 2003 - Warning: Gay sex 7
May 06, 2003 - Reprise, surmise, chatechise
May 01, 2003 - Quick: What's the Greek term for \"fatal flaw\"?
April 28, 2003 - Much better tonight
April 28, 2003 - An hour to kill and I do nothing
April 28, 2003 - Morning
April 27, 2003 - Brief glimpse of my secret place
April 27, 2003 - It keeps them at bay
April 25, 2003 - I'm going to prison to begin my new prison-bitch career
April 25, 2003 - A fabian entry, rambling, devoid of substance yet reassuring
April 21, 2003 - Seek ye the Palladium elsewhere tonight
April 19, 2003 - Wanted: Something different than what I have now
April 17, 2003 - Doodles, random
April 17, 2003 - Wry disclosure, fronting, I need to cover up and in this entry do it well
April 16, 2003 - Slightly better, lesser improved
April 10, 2003 - Last minute things
April 9, 2003 - Thank you for listening
March 28, 2003 - Quit the drama, right? Right.
March 28, 2003 - To Do: Keep busy, don't think, don't be unhappy, don't be friendly and open
March 27, 2003 - Really, I wasn't fishing so stop the butt kissing unless you work it with the tongue... damn that's nasty. I'm surprised I said that. Huh. Oh well.
March 26, 2003 - Head Start: You should check it out, too
March 25, 2003 - It's lunchtime, it's a survey, it's a waste of your time
March 25, 2003 - A few thoughts this morning, with likely more to follow
March 24, 2003 - Some thoughts passing my way
March 23, 2003 - Regrets
March 23, 2003 - Placebo, Domine, placebo
March 22, 2003 - A venture undertaken is satisfaction gleaned, or some phrase like that
March 22, 2003 - Some quick thoughts, a place holder for examination later
March 21, 2003 - Spec's here and shirtless yum yum
March 21, 2003 - A pointless bit of excoriation
March 20, 2003 - I think the Counting Crows redid Joplin; how easy to be erased, isn't it?
March 18, 2003 - Take two on today
March 17, 2003 - Schadenfreude
March 17, 2003 - One of those thoughts, meandering, repetitious, thoroughly unimpressive
March 16, 2003 - Holy shit, this is what one means when referring to a Waste of time
March 15, 2003 - This entry isn't worth reading
March 14, 2003 - Friday afternoon blowjob didn't appeal
March 13, 2003 - Awww. I'll pat myself on my back, thank you very much.
March 13, 2003 - Entropy, Newtonian physics, assessments
March 12, 2003 - Shove off
March 11, 2003 - I'm feeling okay now, everything is under control. Why does that strike me as apropos for a bumper sticker? Trivializing binaries of push and pull, only one can win.
March 11, 2003 - I'm too late to think of a description
March 10, 2003 - I'm exhausted and want to go to sleep but it is too early for that so I'll masturbate instead
March 09, 2003 - Some thought on a tired, overplayed topic that I haven't moved past yet
March 08, 2003 - Unene, karaha
March 08, 2003 - It's time to go, he says, but not quite yet
March 08, 2003 - Useless!
March 07, 2003 - Home early this afternoon and it was good to beat the traffic
March 06, 2003 - Some Barbara-the-Editor-inspired thoughts
March 06, 2003 - A survey to kill time, that's the idea, but what I'd rather kill is the work I'm avoiding doing
March 05, 2003 - Miscellanea
March 05, 2003 - On failure
March 05, 2003 - On war and gas and frog balls
March 04, 2003 - Quickly now before the keyboard is aflood
March 04, 2003 - The morning after and I'm late again
March 03, 2003 - I've dropped my keys into the murk
March 03, 2003 - I would ask for help or an ear but then I remember, I don't do that
March 03, 2003 - This one is about nothing at all except for minor reference to de-gaying programmers, of which I only briefly mention the idea because I'm unsure about the whole thing
March 02, 2003 - I'm polite but drop olives to find an excuse to look away and breathe so I don't clop you over the head and shout Imbecile! Imbecile!
March 02, 2003 - On funerals and remonstrances
March 02, 2003 - Something I've been thinking about since waking this morning and watching the birds
March 01, 2003 - Horny Saturdays spent looking for what will not be found
February 28, 2003 - Friday afternoon, all is quiet, all is calm
February 27, 2003 - Ruminations on a telephone call from Spec and ensuing thoughts
February 27, 2003 - Procrastination is over and that's the crack! of the whip and it isn't supposed to feel good. But shhh, don't tell anyone.
February 27, 2003 - Thursday to do, to write, to be in a good mood and this isn't bipolar or manic, simply the way it's supposed to be
February 26, 2003 - I think about this often but go in circles, reach no conclusions, see nothing clearer
February 25, 2003 - Online quiz: I detest half of me
February 25, 2003 - On Deafness, deafness, the end and who knows what else
February 24, 2003 - Letters from grandma, wind and rain, a great day
February 23, 2003 - \" . \"
February 21, 2003 - Eliot was right; it ends with a whimper, not a bang
February 20, 2003 - Random thoughts from the pit
February 20, 2003 - Thursday morning, cereal-less because I overlooked the need to obtain more milk as per the Wednesday schedule.
February 20, 2003 - If I didn't have this journal I think I would talk to no one and that is a frightening notion
February 19, 2003 - There's got to be something worth the hassle
February 18, 2003 - Much calmer II
February 18, 2003 - Tell me a joke
February 18, 2003 - Unwell
February 17, 2003 - This is lust, this unbearable desire
February 17, 2003 - I just don't know diddly shit when it comes to perceptions. Diddly shit? Squat? Who cares.
February 16, 2003 - It's not light out yet
February 15, 2003 - It's less a re-cap and more an excuse to look away from the work I'm supposed to be doing, to have done. But that is the privilege of being a writer, telling your editor I'm not done yet and there is little she can do. I think.
February 15, 2003 - Gay sex 3 warning. Valentine's Day sex is just too generic, like shopping at WalMart, but damn! it was h o t
February 14, 2003 - Valentine's Day: There's a barb in love, sometimes it's a pinprick, other times like an injury unnoticed at the time, that hurts afterwards
February 13, 2003 - Pathetic reunion maelstrom
February 13, 2003 - Bush, Spec, oil, all in a good day's work
February 13, 2003 - Wesley Snipes as executioner
February 12, 2003 - On race, racism, class, and confusion
February 11, 2003 - It's morning, I'm singing (was, rather), I'm in a good mood
February 10, 2003 - This entry is a bad flossing experience
February 10, 2003 - It is lunchtime and the paper was not scorned, and my rice and green peas are cold, not hot
February 09, 2003 - Bless me, for I'm soon to sneeze
February 08, 2003 - These are the consequences to actions made long ago
February 08, 2003 - On disappointed would-be indulgences and a woman engaged in the non-descript, yet I'm drawn to her
February 07, 2003 - Nursery rhymes
February 06, 2003 - Unfounded fears pushed back one glimpse at a time; I am patient and climbing.
February 05, 2003 - Why are you coming after me for money? As if the roads were nicely paved and I owe you a favor or two? Damn government!
February 04, 2003 - Yeah, I'm turning into a fag.
February 02, 2003 - A fine Sunday evening
February 01, 2003 - It's a Tet show but not at the Pink Poodle, not that I've ever been to the or any place with a name like that. But wait, I have been, once, for Greg's bachelor party.
February 01, 2003 - Gung hoy fat choy or something like that
January 31, 2003 - Pre-empted and bothered but I will recover and reschedule and wash my windows inside and out, to lose myself in thought and the pleasant aroma of vinegar
January 30, 2003 - Just go, all of you supposed readers, busybodies, nosy malcontents, voyeurs all
January 29, 2003 - Newly added to list of things to work on is Jumping To Conclusions: Knock it off you dumb ass
January 29, 2003 - At least I didn't put the milk in the freezer like I did before
January 28, 2003 - To flea or not to flee, that's not the question; the inquiry is, have I flatlined yet and if not, why? I'm expecting prompt service, not like the last time I rode a public bus.
January 28, 2003 - What?
January 27, 2003 - I'll rewrite this tomorrow
January 27, 2003 - I don't know what the hell this is about other than I'm whining but that's not quite it, but most of it
January 26, 2003 - It's a thick fog
January 25, 2003 - I find comfort in cemeteries, don't you?
January 24, 2003 - Summer 2003 plans, another pat on the back, more readings in French?
January 23, 2003 - Put me on hiatus until the Superbowl and then defrost what's left, dispose of gristle and unpalatable sections, wipe with 409
January 23, 2003 - Insousiance
January 23, 2003 - The morning after
January 22, 2003 - A coup de grace or evil, pure evil
January 22, 2003 - Tired
January 21, 2003 - A shot in the arm, to say the things I've been afraid of all these years, the morose poetry will have an audience and I will read my writing
January 21, 2003 - Exuding pheremones attracting a fly and a sucker, but not to each other
January 21, 2003 - A better day it shall be, it will me, it must be
January 20, 2003 - It's time to pack
January 20, 2003 - You there! No entry allowed unless - unless what?
January 19, 2003 - On a football win and a writer loss, please unplug both the television and me
January 18, 2003 - An impression of the glitterati: Don't steal their water bottles, make sure there are fresh - not old - sliced lime and lemon wedges, and don't compare your teeth with theirs because surely theirs are dental implants and yours are the real thing
January 17, 2003 - It's shut the fuck up for tonight and go to sleep.
January 17, 2003 - Another Friday night
January 16, 2003 - These are the entries I delete
January 16, 2003 - If you don't like it, go away.
January 16, 2003 - You too can buy reconditioned excess furniture direct from the Federal Government. We know you have an aching back and enough funds to cover a direct withdrawl, so you had better act quickly before things get ugly.
January 16, 2003 - Not a serene image, Jason studying at night by yellow lamplight
January 15, 2003 - Don't read this one if you're offended by gay sex
January 14, 2003 - I'm frustrated and stymied
January 13, 2003 - Two goods but this is not a mercantile
January 12, 2003 - I used to believe, wanted to, and the sour taste leaves me wanting
January 11, 2003 - Pilar and Scrabble, the good and the bad mixed carefully, balanced precariously
January 10, 2003 - Leaving early to go nowhere
January 10, 2003 - One of those nights
January 09, 2003 - There's a song in my head but I can't make out the words, similar to the intent of this entry
January 09, 2003 - The book is rolling, lines don't move, and I flirt with mothers
January 08, 2003 - At school, I think and at home I scrub tubs
January 07, 2003 - Where's my beacon? I'm adrift and need direction, insight, a map. Or, lacking that, a fundamental belief that it will not always be like today
January 07, 2003 - Money from the sky
January 07, 2003 - Strangers in a familiar land
- 2003 Book Reviews
- The Cast and Crew of Non-Descript
January 07, 2003 - let it work let it work
January 06, 2003 - Rings of Interest
January 06, 2003 - Nothing of note, even through the lens of me, happened today
January 05, 2003 - The Great Idiot trumps me in my own language; Part 1 of the Great Idiot series. This is not over.
January 04, 2003 - Packages that come in the mail with my name on them are eagerly received
January 04, 2003 - On a walk at one a.m. there is no sound not even rustling in trees, only the groan of chains
January 03, 2003 - It's Friday night and where are you? Everybody knows where I'm at.
January 03, 2003 - Is it because I am considered talented that my services are requested by each party in a high-profile, complicated, messy divorce and a comment on how my skills are viewed by those I once admired, or is it more a matter of each striving for damage control
January 03, 2003 - I thought adolescent female angst stopped once you got laid; a misconception?
January 02, 2003 - If I write \"moist\" \"hot\" and \"chicken\" in the same sentence, what is the likelihood someone will search Google for that phrase, seeking something completely different?
January 02, 2003 - I am sick of because and but, my two best friends
January 01, 2003 - On the Plan and cooking
January 01, 2003 - For me, all of it. Just me.
December 31, 2002 - Happy New Year's eve, 2002 is gone soon
December 30, 2002 - Dissatisfaction comes with the wind and sneaks through the gaps in the walls
December 30, 2002 - If I lose a day, does this mean I'm a day younger?
December 29, 2002 - Read this often and remember it
December 29, 2002 - The countdown is here, ticking
December 28, 2002 - Go away and leave me in peace, and take the damn slimy dog with you
December 28, 2002 - On drooling dogs and sex the day after
December 27, 2002 - A short one on sex
December 27, 2002 - They don't call me Mr. Hometime for nothing
December 26, 2002 - Quick, call the paramedics. I'm liquifying
December 25, 2002 - Christmas 2002, early morning
December 24, 2002 - I've got to go
December 23, 2002 - It wasn't like the song but not unlike it either
December 23, 2002 - Can a guy have a bad hair day?
December 23, 2002 - This one resembles the rush for a crack pipe that's fallen to the floor, or a bunch of drunks on a Tilt-a-Whirl trying to walk crookedly so as to walk straight, but still not making it
December 22, 2002 - You know as well as I what I want
December 22, 2002 - From the Mixed Up Files of Jason [edited] [edited].
December 22, 2002 - It's my journal and I'll cry if I want to, begging your pardon
December 21, 2002 - One step backwards
December 21, 2002 - It's not a Tupperware party, dipshit
December 21, 2002 - Evidentiary hearing 3: The defense rests, your honor
December 20, 2002 - On plants and music and weather and what the hell kind of entry is this, anyways?
December 19, 2002 - Remember this one and read it
December 19, 2002 - Regurgitate and pass the plate
December 19, 2002 - Inchoate conversations and ensuing dream
December 18, 2002 - Live, Christmas Eve, a reprise by special request
December 18, 2002 - I still don't understand things
December 18, 2002 - Paradigm shift or something worse?
December 17, 2002 - This was a good day
December 16, 2002 - Quick, before the lights go out (again) and the connection terminated
December 16, 2002 - You don't open Christmas presents early, ever. Period. Next year you don't even get coal; you get nada, jack shit, a cold stare.
December 15, 2002 - I have music in my head but not on CDs mailed to you
December 15, 2002 - On writing and the self, or something like that
December 14, 2002 - Fratricide is a crime whether physical or mental
December 13, 2002 - Fruition requires both planning and execution
December 12, 2002 - Another survey, useless and lacking merit
December 11, 2002 - Get over it, he says
December 11, 2002 - Flannel sheets
December 10, 2002 - Pee-dew and Poo-dew and TMI
December 09, 2002 - Splat and wash
December 08, 2002 - If \"family\" isn't accurate, then what is?
December 08, 2002 - Can it be?
December 07, 2002 - On epics and soliloquys about nothing
December 07, 2002 - 100 things
December 07, 2002 - You can feel timbre, did you know that?
December 04, 2002 - I have one kick-ass French accent. It'll make you wet.
December 03, 2002 - halfassed
December 03, 2002 - I'm coming undone, set for completion Thursday
December 02, 2002 - Light comes from the dark
December 02, 2002 - My grandmother catches a cold and I worry; an aunt dies, and I stroll
December 02, 2002 - Christmas CDs and wreathes.... I thought it was about candy and toys
December 01, 2002 - Not Sisyphus
December 01, 2002 - It's a long December already
November 30, 2002 - It's December, aka the Month of Cha-Ching
November 30, 2002 - Debriefing me and the toilet seat
November 28, 2002 - Football break
November 26, 2002 - Simple joys
November 26, 2002 - I hope it's cloudy and not too rainy
November 25, 2002 - Happy Thanksgiving, all
November 25, 2002 - Run! Haste!
November 24, 2002 - On Sunday I'm tired and am off to bed
November 24, 2002 - (shhhh) Don't tell anyone
November 24, 2002 - Aargh 2 or 3 or 4
November 22, 2002 - I need new porn
November 22, 2002 - Fog and This Is What I'm Doing Today
November 21, 2002 - Tired off to bed no socks
November 21, 2002 - Itch scratch itchy non-bar scene
November 20, 2002 - Ideas? Of course not; I don't listen
November 18, 2002 - It's dark out and I'm working
November 18, 2002 - I don't know what to think, but I feel bad
November 14, 2002 - Call me schoolboy again
November 11, 2002 - These entries I delete
November 09, 2002 - Call me bitch by day and... by night?
November 07, 2002 - Tropes lurk, beware
November 06, 2002 - Live shots and ruddy cheeks
November 03, 2002 - Lacuna this
November 01, 2002 - Remember this one, Jason
November 01, 2002 - Something green grows in strange places
October 28, 2002 - Micah 7
October 27, 2002 - It's okay to breathe
October 24, 2002 - Shake that ass, grandma
October 23, 2002 - You suck and so do I
October 22, 2002 - Gauche is not a hand or direction but a way of life
October 21, 2002 - Another?
October 20, 2002 - Grab what you can and flee
October 19, 2002 - Jews for Jews and Jesus for Jesuits?
October 18, 2002 - On eggs
October 17, 2002 - On furniture and too many decisions
October 17, 2002 - Van Gogh, not Picasso, idiot
October 16, 2002 - I want to yell and be hurt and wake up
October 16, 2002 - So today I didn't do much
October 14, 2002 - Eh, not so bad
October 13, 2002 - One day the sun will warm, not burn, my skin
October 13, 2002 - It's quiet but my ears hurt
October 13, 2002 - Mornings at 6, there's no coffee in bed for me
October 12, 2002 - Luke 11:11
October 09, 2002 - Trivialities
October 07, 2002 - I need a Chinese New Year's parade to wake me up and scare off the goblins
October 07, 2002 - Monday morning, it's hot and will be sweat-filled
October 06, 2002 - Prevailing solar winds pass me quickly
October 05, 2002 - Discontent
October 05, 2002 - Bluesy wedding
October 03, 2002 - The freaks come out at night and there I was, surrounded for a while
October 03, 2002 - Anxiety and a confession
October 02, 2002 - New curtains, eh?
October 01, 2002 - I hate spending money
October 01, 2002 - It's Tuesday morning and time to start the day. Blah
September 30, 2002 - 1,001 things. Not really; more like 15
September 30, 2002 - On everything
September 28, 2002 - Coming home tomorrow
September 25, 2002 - It's humble pie on a big plate
September 25, 2002 - It's morning and where's my coffee in bed?
September 24, 2002 - Quick, tell me to shut up
September 23, 2002 - Yeah, me too
September 22, 2002 - The joke's on me
September 21, 2002 - Cold water plans and hot feet
September 20, 2002 - Books et al
September 20, 2002 - On nothing at all
September 19, 2002 - Blah at 5:30
September 18, 2002 - Career non-option: Spying
September 16, 2002 - Day in and day out I'm a cog in nobody's machine
September 16, 2002 - That new car scent doesn't last long when I'm around
September 15, 2002 - On jumpers and nothing
September 15, 2002 - Don't ask about Friday night
September 13, 2002 - Friday night whooo hoooo
September 12, 2002 - It's a thinker thing
September 12, 2002 - Morning fog, cool breeze, I'm cold in shorts
September 11, 2002 - Something wrong
September 08, 2002 - An appeal
September 08, 2002 - Call me Minyades
September 07, 2002 - I've got some Vivaldi on and I finished mowing the lawn so I smell like early fall
September 06, 2002 - I'm nervous, ashamed, out to have fun
September 06, 2002 - I'd laugh and say Shoo if it didn't alarm me
September 04, 2002 - A quick thought, messy but warm
September 04, 2002 - On the cognoscenti
September 04, 2002 - I staple staples to the beat of my heart
September 03, 2002 - At work, he plays, if only for a moment
August 29, 2002 - Come, swim with me
August 28, 2002 - I'm calm on the downward slide
August 27, 2002 - On packages
August 27, 2002 - Quickly snuff the candle for I'm soon to a bed
August 22, 2002 - Who can think beyond now?
August 20, 2002 - On virtue
August 20, 2002 - I need some warm soy-milk and a cookie
August 19, 2002 - Fuck me twice and then tell me I'm no good
August 19, 2002 - Just a thought
August 18, 2002 - Back to work. Just think April 10, April 10, April 10
August 16, 2002 - Spread me on a bagel and you'll get more satisfaction than by reading this entry
August 15, 2002 - I know you want to hear my drawl
August 10, 2002 - Rolling, rolling, rolling down the riiiiiver
August 08, 2002 - Exit university left, exit everything else right
August 06, 2002 - It's the professor and Mary Anne!
August 05, 2002 - I disavow any knowledge of events or happenstances
August 05, 2002 - The week in preview
August 04, 2002 - Once upon a time
August 03, 2002 - Is that your office or the set of a porno?
August 03, 2002 - Steam
August 01, 2002 - On it being 1:00
July 31, 2002 - 2
July 31, 2002 - Good morning! Where's my scrambled eggs in bed?
July 30, 2002 - This is the good scent from afar
July 30, 2002 - I am Jason
July 29, 2002 - On mornings too early for all, I'm awake feeling down
July 28, 2002 - I'm bored and there are gremlins in my computer
July 27, 2002 - On grammar, the lexicon, and barbarians at the gate
July 26, 2002 - There is nothing more to it than this
July 26, 2002 - Random flow of mental duress
July 24, 2002 - Quasi queasy, quasi recovered
July 23, 2002 - Bi the by
July 23, 2002 - Pass the menstruation symbolism, please
July 22, 2002 - Is it Monday yet?
July 21, 2002 - The winds stink of carcass
July 21, 2002 - Giving up
July 20, 2002 - On commercials and dying
July 18, 2002 - On shameless (non)pride/pride
July 17, 2002 - Uneventful, unoriginal, unnoteworthy day
July 17, 2002 - On conductors and sleep
July 15, 2002 - Cram courses suck as do the students who enroll in them
July 14, 2002 - On death and life and riding bicycles on lawns
July 14, 2002 - On a rainy morning after two nights of not sleeping, I wonder what's wrong?
July 11, 2002 - Be patient, trust, believe the fortune cookie
July 10, 2002 - After the left, a downturn
July 08, 2002 - Leather fantasies do come true
July 07, 2002 - Thinking of West Virginia and an empty road
July 06, 2002 - I'm ambidextrous, did you know?
July 05, 2002 - Kein dumkopf hier, ja?
July 05, 2002 - On butterflies and fools
July 04, 2002 - Humble pie
July 03, 2002 - Macho macho man wilting in the heat
July 02, 2002 - Aloha
July 02, 2002 - Purpose
July 01, 2002 - Accretion of self is diminuative of skill
July 01, 2002 - A happy day is when your T.A. does the teaching and you can nap
June 30, 2002 - A short description of this entry is Recap, unfulfilled
June 28, 2002 - I'm off to play tourist for the weekend
June 28, 2002 - What the fuck is wrong with me
June 27, 2002 - Anger management and men in orange vests
June 26, 2002 - go go go
June 26, 2002 - There's pathetic, and then there's off the charts pathetic
June 25, 2002 - Damn this lonely thing!
June 24, 2002 - Life is not Burger King
June 24, 2002 - Fantasizing on the first day. Not a good sign.
June 24, 2002 - Let the games begin
June 23, 2002 - Like a good neighbor, a frog is always there
June 21, 2002 - Doldrums with a view
June 20, 2002 - Bull dykes & squirrely T.A.s
June 20, 2002 - Maryland, the pallid state
June 19, 2002 - I'm off
June 18, 2002 - I feel like talking
June 17, 2002 - Drivel
June 16, 2002 - On barbarians and the refrain, Woe Is Me (redux)
June 14, 2002 - It's Friday night. What are you doing?
June 12, 2002 - Gripe cubed and say no more
June 11, 2002 - A reflection of the times is a meaningless, internet-based survey
June 10, 2002 - Postal twit mocked my attention to detail
June 10, 2002 - A good scent and unpleasant thoughts
June 06, 2002 - On coffins, graveyards, and seeing gray
June 05, 2002 - On reading and persecution
June 04, 2002 - Vent me again
June 03, 2002 - Standing in line waiting to move
May 29, 2002 - Can't sleep and can't write, what good is this journal?
May 28, 2002 - I'm grilling I'm burning I'm grilling
May 27, 2002 - Impulse shopper
May 24, 2002 - No games for me
May 22, 2002 - the lost episodes
May 22, 2002 - Vapid
May 22, 2002 - Dreaming of accents and cutting nails
May 21, 2002 - Doggone it, it rains work
May 19, 2002 - On weddings
May 15, 2002 - Que sera... what?
May 13, 2002 - earthquake
May 12, 2002 - Non-Descript, Young III
May 12, 2002 - A new outlook?
May 12, 2002 - Hi ho hi ho it's off...
May 11, 2002 - Tumble jumble tangent argument
May 08, 2002 - Cough cough cough
May 08, 2002 - Ah, the sweet aroma of being desired
May 06, 2002 - Q & A?
May 05, 2002 - Who the hell is Kirsten Dunst anyway?
May 03, 2002 - Match tile to cartoon and you have a terrible story
May 02, 2002 - Stalagtites, stalactites, it's all the same
May 02, 2002 - Stop, eh?
May 01, 2002 - Work!
April 30, 2002 - Shabbat Shalom and Praise Jesus!
April 30, 2002 - Postscript
April 29, 2002 - Non-Descript, Young II
April 29, 2002 - Gemutlichkeit
April 29, 2002 - Step step fall
April 27, 2002 - Fugue
April 26, 2002 - Non-Descript: Young, 1
April 26, 2002 - Evidentiary hearing 1
April 25, 2002 - So what brings you here?
April 24, 2002 - Tend your garden before it rains
April 23, 2002 - On picnics and self esteem
April 22, 2002 - Up up up
April 19, 2002 - Disabuse me please
April 17, 2002 - Snip snip
April 15, 2002 - Dreaming albino
April 14, 2002 - Grit
April 12, 2002 - Dry humping squirrel and bees' wings
April 11, 2002 - Red on white and the movies
April 11, 2002 - A qwicky
April 10, 2002 - kill me
April 09, 2002 - Throw away the key
April 09, 2002 - Cut my hands off, please
April 08, 2002 - Is this really me?
April 07, 2002 - Drop me quickly
April 04, 2002 - Long day
April 03, 2002 - I never reach conclusions. Just whine about situations
April 02, 2002 - Fraternal epistles and merrypainting
March 31, 2002 - I'm home
March 22, 2002 - Hasta
March 22, 2002 - Fast lane, two occupants
March 20, 2002 - Ring ring! (...hi there honey... my name is Trixie and I'm oh! so naked...)
March 20, 2002 - Pilpul II
March 20, 2002 - My ears pound and my head splits
March 17, 2002 - Kol kol kol
March 13, 2002 - On praxis and free agency
March 12, 2002 - ?
March 11, 2002 - That's my drawer
March 10, 2002 - SOS
March 09, 2002 - This broken record thing is annoying even me. How about you?
March 07, 2002 - Pointless
March 06, 2002 - Cue!
March 04, 2002 - Some spanking, some tickling, some sex
February 28, 2002 - Leaving on a jet plane
February 27, 2002 - Morning. Night. Morning. Night.
February 24, 2002 - El migra, abuelito y abuelita
February 24, 2002 - Don't bite on the wafer
February 23, 2002 - Daffs
February 22, 2002 - Fin
February 22, 2002 - Anacoenosis
February 20, 2002 - book
- One ought, every day at least, to hear a little song, read a good poem, see a fine picture and, if it were possible, speak a few reasonable words - - Goethe
February 20, 2002 - It's all about commodities
February 20, 2002 - Ambsace
- About Me: A Noegenic Summation
February 18, 2002 - HeHe Sowee HeHe
February 15, 2002 - It's a bird.. a plane.. a lark
February 14, 2002 - On capons and barbers
February 13, 2002 - Itis

 

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